I've decided I'm going to guiltlessly continue my crappy eating habits until 2006.

It's already as bad as it can get; I love to eat before I sleep and lots of little meals and snack and sugary and salty and fatty foods. I love McD cheeseburgers and apple pie at 3 in the morning. I now eat the fatty parts of honey baked ham instead of cutting it off. I eat the minute I'm kinda hungry and stop until I'm busting out of my jeans (which doesn't take much nowadays). I love coke now. It's like years of restricting myself has all gone down the pooper in one semester.

After Jan 31st I'm going to reduce my fat/sugar/sodium intake, attempt to exercise, and convert fat into pathetic bits of muscle.

I'm basically just trying to make myself feel better right before I go downstairs and butter up white bread (I haven't bought white bread in like 4 years) and sprinkle sugar on top. I will then read Calvin and Hobbes until I pass out and sleep for my customary 9-10 hours.

positive conditioning

I must say God/Allah/Buddha is not doing a very good job in teaching me a lesson about procrastinating.

Tuesday night I'm trying to study for a final on Wednesday. Instead I do nothing until 11:00pm. Mo comes over at 12am and I don't resume studying again until 2:30am. I get sleepy at 3:30am and pass out.

I try to wake up early the next morning to study. By early I mean 12:30pm instead of 1:00pm. I skim my notes and go to class, despite a few rumors that school was closing at 2:00pm. School is closed. The TA tells us to go home.

So instead of taking the extra time to study for my two tests on Thursday, I go home on the bus with Jenny and end up eating, doing my hair, learning how to use make-up like a girl, eating, watching tv, and eating. I get home at 11:30 and end up starting to study around 2:00. I study for about an hour and a half and sleep.

I wake up the next day at 12:45 and realize school is closed.

BAH! I now have to take 3 tests after EOS, but I think I am officially never going to stop being a lazy ass procrastinator when it comes to school.

I need to be taught a lesson in responsibility and will power, but how can I when all these things that happen to me that teach me otherwise?